Broken Baby Doll •

I think once all of you is given to someone,

Its very hard to get all of it back again.

You return back in scattered pieces,

Like a box full of your things,

Hoodies that still smell like him,

The pain that crushes your rib cage,

The dead putrefacted butterflies in your stomach,

Oohh that pain is unbearable.

I came back in million pieces too,

Like a book with missing pages,

Torn love letters with scattered words,

Motionless nights with wet pillows.

I miss you so very much,

That sometimes i almost feel numb about everything else.

We were everything a couple ever needs,

But now all i see are my empty hands alone.

Some nights I lay on my bed,

Holding up my broken pieces,

Trying to fit them in the first place.

But then a cold voice somewhere in the distance,

Wispers this to me every time, always,

I told you before long ago,

That broken baby dolls can never be fixed again.

Dobara tor mat dena •

Wrote it like 2 years back. Felt like sharing it.
Its not perfect though.
But nothing's perfect right ?

Koi gila na keroongi...
Sab kuch seh loongi...
Bayaan nai keroongi kisi se...
Gala khuwaishon ka ghoont doongi...
Na awaz doongi dobara kabhi...
Na hi wapis mangoongi tumhe...
Lekin ek iltija hai meri...
Poori is baar ker dena...
Chup chaap chale jana...
Ab ki baar bas...
Dhoka na dena...
Mujhe dobara tor na dena...

• 20 Facts About Me ❤

1- Allah mian has blessed me more then I deserve Allhumdullilah ♥

2- I love to sleep. I sleep almost 12 hours a day or even more sometimes.

3- Depression or tension ki chalti phirti machine hun.

4- Badle bht bure lena chahti hun or le bhi sakhti hun per Allah pak se darti hun.

5- I am a dreamer.

6- I can read people's face. (Bitch lying to me wont help you).

7- Fake logon ki mere ird gird line lagi hai or ese logon se nafrat hai mujhe.

8- Possessive like fuck. Kuch bhi share kerna pasand nai hai chahe wo mere markers pencils ya erasers hi kyun na hon ( Bad habbit :( )

9- I have a strong faith that a close friend who tolerates and stays quite when something is said about you while you were not there are not good or close friends anymore.

10- I have loved and I have lost. I know how drowning feels when everyone else is breathing around you.

11- I have many secrets that i have never shared with anyone.

12- I am a very sensitive person, I feel the slightest change present in my surrounding.

13- I get hurt but i never tell people that they hurt me. I tend to keep it to myself.

14- I am an artistic person, i love drawing, doodles, sketches, photography, editing, crafts and what not ohh Lord :D

15- There are a few people in my life that i can never forgive. I tried my best, i tried forgetting i try to talk to them normally but i couldnot forgive them. And I am waiting for the day of judgement because iska badla mein akhir mein chahoongi is duniya mein nai.

16- I am not affraid of loosing and being alone. Been there, Been better, been perfect Alhumdullilah lol

17- I try my best to make people happy around me especially those suffering from sever depression, I listen to them, because at the end of the day all you want is someone to hear you rather than judging.

18- Logon ko pehchanane ka experience hai or ability bhi

19- I fucking hate people jinhein bht parwa hoti hai apne doosron ke sath relations banane ki awein muft mein ta ke extra favours le sakhein sale tarse we log ._. Like going out of your limits to make your image ta ke log apko praise kerein apki help kerein fuck you seriously ._. Hanikarak hote hain ese log sehat ke lie ._.

20- I keep my friend's circle small

These are just a few ones. I can go on and on about this :')

Do share yours if you have any. ❤

Pheli Muhabbat ♥

Log sochte hain ke muhabbat bar bar ho sakhti hai. Ek dafa ki muhabat agar kamyaab nai hui tu dobara ho jayegi per mera yeh nazria nai hai. Mere khayal se muhabbat ya pyaar sirf ek baar hi ho sakhta hai. Wo insaan phir chahe apki zindagi se nikal jaye ya door chala jaye, shaid adat ho jaye uske na hone ki per dil ki dharkanon ko jis teranh usne betarteeb kia tha wese koi nai ker payega.

Ya yeh kehna ziada munasib rahega ke apka subconcious mind apki dil ki dharkanon ko phir wese betarteeb hone hi nai dega. Jee haan apka subconcious mind, wo abhi bhi sirf us ek insaan se jure armanon pe hi machlega. Yehi waja hai ke hum apni zindagi mein ek us insaan ke baad ane wale her shaks se samjhota kerne mein bhi mushkil mehsoos kerte hain or agr ker hi lein tu wo samjhota hi hota hai phir, hamari merzi bht kam hoti hai. Khushiyan waqti ho jati hain. Dil demagh dobara wese kabhi pursakoon nai ho pata jese ek us sakhs ke hone se hota tha. 

Khud sochiye dil jese ek us insaan ke text message pe dharkta hai ajj bhi kia kabhi kisi or insaan ki waja se us taal pe dharak payega ? Or yehi baatein sochte sochte depression ki waja ban jati hain.

Is jaga yehi kehna behter hai ke pheli muhabat Allah ki ho ta ke ta-Qayamat dil munawar rahe or pursakoon.

Per masla yahan uth-tha hai ke hum logon ko is cheez ki akal bht late ati hai. Tab tak hum pheli muhabat wala khel bure tareeke se haar chuke hote hain. Or bas ab khali haath pheli muhabat dobara pane ki koshish mein jadojehed kerte rehte hain per yeh bhool jate hain ke ab pheli muhabat kho gai hai hamesha ke lie or hamesha ki kho jane wali cheezein wapis nai aya kertein.

Need motivation ehh ? ☆

Bad times :'(
     
2011 was a freaking bad year of my life. I was almost loosing myself completly in my studies and it was one of the crucial times regarding my line of career to choose.
No one was very supportive of me and I was pretty all alone. I had only me to support and trust me. So much bad times aahh !!

Motivation ★

Therefore this was my motivation. I wrote that up on a paper and pasted it on the wall near to my pillow. So i could see it every night i go to sleep and every morning i wake up. It played its role as a reminder and kinda pushed me alot. It worked as a great motivation Alhumdullilah. Small acts really matter sometimes and push you to be successful SubahAllah.

I'll like you to hold tight to stuff and look for the ways, dig them out and be your own inspiration ♥

Chand Raat ♡

Favourite festival ♥
Chandraat marks the event Eid for Muslims. Celebrated all around the world but moslty it forms a part of eastern culture.
The pictures along with them are mehendi designs.

Tradition ♥
Putting henna or mehendi on is a traditional stuff we do.
Girly thing ehh ? :D

As i am madly creative at it i am always the center of attention on this tradition ♥

There you go a few pictures of mehendi wale haath ♥